Messer Upper

I am literally messing everything up. I don't know why or how, just that I am.

And dear Lord, it's making me so snuffaluffagus.


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ERG! Even messing up my relationship with my computer. I'm sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!

First it's a guy, then it's a guy again, and then it's my best friend, and now it's the piano, and my homework, and this computer, and every other shiz possible. 

WARNING THIS IS A VENTING POST

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Honestly, why does anyone want to put up with me. I'm ridiculous. Firk. This is my own cow shiz.

I wish it were actually Halloween. Not to say it isn't, but there's no feeling of spirit in the air. Like there is always a constant feeling of October, with the leaves and the trees and the crisp air and the ending of soccer season and the joy I get from having too much free time. But there's no kids running around outside, hopeful of getting things that they shouldn't. It sounds so weird, but that's why I love Halloween, because I love seeing so many smiles on people's faces, and it's just out of the pure innocence of having fun being something completely different and no body cares. That's what life should be all about, being what you love and not caring how anyone else sees you. 

Wow, suddenly I make sense. Good venting time, Kaylene.

WHY DOES ANYONE LIKE ME

I really wish people could see the world through my eyes. Like it's such a scary place, but a world of opportunity. I feel like that's what everyone needs is a little more sense of hope and understand and less of seeing what's reality. Like, duh, there's problems, but I choose to see the good and avoid the bad. I only consider the bad when absolutely necessary.

Dear narwhals, I need someone to just be able to put up with me. 

This isn't real life. 

Wait, yes it is. 

Can I go back to the way things were with everyone else? Oh, wait. 

I actually like being me. Just not on hours like this. Surprisingly today was so enjoyable. Just not this particular hour. Sorry for yelling at you, mom. 

UERGGGGGG. LOL VENTING DIDN'T HELP

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