Freedom

Welp, I have gone from complications after complications, to finally serenity. And it feels nice.

I was debating my entire life, not to say that I still am. I need to decide the following things:

• who I am
• who I want to be if I am not already that
• my needs
• my wants
• my pleasures
• why I want to be who I am 
• how all the above things would fit with the life of one other person.

Needless to say, the scariest was the last bullet. I couldn't handle constantly thinking about everything at once. But truly the scariest part was not being able to clearly answer the questions. I had never thought about any of the answers before. That scared me, too.

I know I'm overthinking it, but I suppose this is how I approach these things, even though I have never been faced with them before.

I love my life. I like who I am and where I stand with others and myself. I am happy to have my soul and what time I have here in this world.

I still need to think though, and that may be the scariest thing for all of you out there. 'Cuz when I start to think... It never ends.