Not many people will believe me when I say I have changed for the better. I don't know exactly what caused this change, but I know that I am more head-strong, and therefore I am happier. It may not seem like those two things would go together, but they do in my case. Example time! I used to be scared of having that one kid interact with me in any way because of something stupid he did but made me feel bad for it. Today, Alexi was having a bad day. I wanted her to be able to get out all of her tension, not to mention the tension I was feeling a little bit, too. Now last year, I would not have done this because I would have been embarrassed, or maybe even afraid to express myself out loud. We got outside and instantly started screaming with all the passing buses going by. During this time, that same kid that used to be a peripheral fear stuck his head out the window and screamed back at us. All I could do was laugh because in my mind, all I could think was, "Wow, how dumb do you think I am?" I knew he was trying to hurt me. It didn't work. At all. I laughed back at his scream, and I laugh back at it now.
From this story, you (and I) should know that I am not scared any more. I am willing to show what I have in me. That thought alone would've scared me before, but not any more. I am changed.
"I've heard it said that people come into out lives for a reason bringing
something we must learn, and we are led to those who help us most to
grow, if we let them, and they help us in return."
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