Selfish

DEAR PEOPLE I TALK TO IN REAL LIFE, DON'T HESITATE TO DO ANYTHING WITH ME BECAUSE OF THIS POST. IT SOUNDS WORSE THAN THE ACTUAL APPLICATION.

I've been debating this...
What gives someone the right to be selfish? How far should someone be willing to say and do what they want to get what they want? How far can some actually go to do all that?

Sometimes it feels like I am here for everyone else's needs. I'm the person people come to complain to or to ask for money from or give a hug. Not to say I'm not happy to give these things, but there's always a little voice in the back of my head asking if these people actually deserve it. Then I end up smashing that voice deep down until moments like this because I think those thoughts are too selfish for me to think.

I'm not trying to be an attention whore, but I tear just rolled down my cheek.

I can't stand not knowing what the boundaries are in life. That's so epically general, but it bothers me. What's the line that's been made for me to ask other people things? How far do they think they can go? Is there a difference? Why should I have to care- because isn't this all about what I think? No, that's too selfish.

I just wished there was someone to sit here and tell me it's ok to question it but that I shouldn't. It doesn't make sense, and obviously I over-think everything, but what limits are set and which do we make ourselves? I know this affects our entire lives, so don't try and tell me otherwise. Just let it be, which I will have to do as well at this point.